–>Listening to Fall Out Boy – Honorable Mention<–
..the question is what: kind of love?..
..the first one i think could be a love like in “High Fidelity”..do you know?..

..she breaks up with him..he at the beginning thinks maybe it’s the right thing..he’s always tried to keep his options opened..he’s never been committed to anything-anyone (he’s turning 36 or something like this)..he finally can smoke everytime he wants to..make love to every girl he wants..and the most wonderful think is that he reorganize his records, autobiographically this time (everytime he breaks up with a girl he reorganize his records)..
..”If you *really* wanted to screw me up, you should’ve gotten to me earlier”..
..he yells to her through the window..his words run through the rain..reach her down on the street..and i imagined myself..running away from MY person..that i actually still in love with (IF IF IF!!!)..
..he says she’s changed..her hair, her clothes, her behaviours..she become a lawyer and money ain’t a problem..and he remains the same..working at “championship vinyl”, with his two friends, without any new idea, or project he really want to realize..and with the usual money problem..(would love a guy that works at a records shop..:P)
..MY person says i’ve changed my mind about a lot of things..my ideas about work, family, children, home, love..and he’s actually remained the same..
–>Listening to Josh Kelley – Scrumptious<–
..as in the movie..i feel like Laura..realize that Rob’s life is all about the shop, music and keep his options opened..
..during the movie, a great movie [but, as most of the times, the book is (a little or so much) better] Rob and Laura think about the problems they have..why does she decided to break up with him and go living with Ray (i hate Ian too) and what would she like to have in her life..why he hasn’t changed his life yet..why he’s always had one foot out the door that prevented him from doing a lot of things, like thinking about the future..
..MY person thinks about the future maybe too much..that scares me..woo it really scares me!..
–>Listening to The Clash – Should I Stay Or Should I Go?<–
..what should i do?..wait as in the movie?..should i wait for something that would change my mind deeply?..as for Rob at Laura’s father funeral..damn!..have i to realize that i’ve always loved MY person?..even if there had been “someone else” as for Rob and Marie LaSalle?..
..i think i was like Rob some years ago..i lived in my own world..music..colours..friends and love..now i want always something new..that could teach me something..that would make me feel alive..that would inspire me every minute..
..even if i think that it could be great if there would be someone that thinking about me would write down the things he misses about me..
“Top five things I miss about Laura. One; sense of humor. Very dry, but it can also be warm and forgiving. And she’s got one of the best all time laughs in the history of all time laughs, she laughs with her entire body. Two; she’s got character. Or at least she had character before the Ian nightmare. She’s loyal and honest, and she doesn’t even take it out on people when she’s having a bad day. That’s character. Three; I miss her smell, and the way she tastes. It’s a mystery of human chemistry and I don’t understand it, some people, as far as their senses are concerned, just feel like home. Four; I really dig how she walks around. It’s like she doesn’t care how she looks or what she projects and it’s not that she doesn’t care it’s just, she’s not affected I guess, and that gives her grace. And five; she does this thing in bed when she can’t get to sleep, she kinda half moans and then rubs her feet together an equal number of times… it just kills me. Believe me, I mean, I could do a top five things about her that drive me crazy but it’s just your garden variety women you know, schizo stuff and that’s the kind of thing that got me here.”
..that’s the first kind of my love..and it would continue perfectly with a compilation..
“The making of a great compilation tape, like breaking up, is hard to do and takes ages longer than it might seem. You gotta kick off with a killer, to grab attention. Then you got to take it up a notch, but you don’t wanna blow your wad, so then you got to cool it off a notch. There are a lot of rules. Anyway… I’ve started to make a tape… in my head… for Laura. Full of stuff she likes. Full of stuff that make her happy. For the first time I can sort of see how that is done.”
..but one thing remains..
..i could live the most wonderful love story of my life..for example (it’s a pity it’s just an example) with a guy like Rob..he has a lot of doubts..but at the end he realize that he loves Laura..and he actually has always done..but what about me?..
..no, i don’t think i will come back to MY person..he’s gone..and it’s fine like this..and the big problem is not start a relationship with someone..but truly believe in him..and in the love he says he feels..

..stop looking at me like this!!..:P..
–>Listening to Solomon Burke – Got To Get You Off Of My Mind<–
>>>..a life about fear of commitment, (i hope) loving your job, falling in love, and other pop favourites..<<<
..music will always be one of the most important things in my life..i’m sorry “guy that will spend (or that will try to) the rest of his life with me”..